Loving.tender.care

My 23th Birthday

2010-01-15T22:54:00.003+08:00

My 23th birthday was another meaning moment for me...Thanks to Bf for making it all plan out just by himself.I know its hard to suprise some1 espically ur love one if you're doing it alone.Haha..yea that day i was on course and unable to celebrate it the whole day with my boyfren.But at least he made the effort.I'm loving it tau b..b.You always make me happy n smile..asraf is my lil cute baby boy..hahah :)

To have you thru out my journey is the most important part..b.

My present...thank you b..

Thank you b for all the things you done for me and yes...i love you till my last breath. :)

We Talk Like We're Famous

2009-12-21T22:54:00.005+08:00

Party Like A Rockstar!!

we had so much fun together...

My one and only ROCKSTAR!!

Our Pasta Time....Yummy!

Armani....:)

My One Fav. "BEBE"...hahaha.
We ended our day by taking new print..for the very first time...we juz try..haha.Its funny cos we could not understand as it written in japan...so we were rushing and end up a lil mess...but it was fun..hahaha.

*I LOVE YOU*

Dec is My Day!!

2009-12-19T23:44:00.009+08:00

i bought my own digital camera in black...i bought it for $145,it include the stand,cleaning kit,memory card and the bag...i'm loving it...its nice somemore its 12.2 pix....yahoooo!!..

ok firstly i'm glad that my porated bonus is in...and i get it.even i dun get full i still get it..haha which i think it is BIG amount for myself for the very first time...maner tak...4 digit...babes..nak jejak 3 ribu...wahyaooo!!!!I'm so happy...yahoo...money...money!!Saving is getting higher..haha...i'm glad i'm in the right path of my future...no regrets.

we get chocolates still!!!..haha

The mask women...

*Me and Maizura....

my ward christmas party...

The prizes.....

The Day Before....BF and me...@ Town...this have been our 3rd or 4th time we going town...haha...shopper holics...haha.Muackss!

I Love you....

So Happy!

2009-12-16T00:32:00.007+08:00

I'm so happy.Haha.firstly i got to meet my sweet lil Bf.I wont say what i do today but instead i will cut it short and simple.I'm happy...super happy cause Bf bring me out to town,not with bike but on train.So we had our time together walking home too...

So,Bf and i went shopping...actually we dun even have plan for shopping cos we need to save up.But u see...it getting the end of the year and SALE are going on right now..this month.Super SALE...i just cant resist it.Things getting cheaper now,for now at last.So BF treat me a couple of things...i noe he cant buy things for himself if i dont buy too...it juz not complete for him...for me either.Whenever we went shopping,does not matter who's pay day..we still buy for each other.
Well..my super sweet bf was very happy and excited cos his fav. n wants shop are having SALE.haha.So he bought himself the WANTS..which i think its ok cos its been long he refuse to buy things for himself.I can see it he's happy...and so do i.

But i'm much more happy to accompany him shopping cos....i get a gift too.Haha.Bf bought for me a wallet from GUESS...gosshh..i'm loving it!! and he bought for both of us a shirt from GAP...which i try and i think its lovely...so do bf.Haha...I'm so happy.I juz love this end of year SALE and i hope every end of year will be like this...haha...habis ah duit mcm nie..

ok i need to sleep now....cos tomorrow need to work...and i hope bf send me too..cos i'm lazy to wake up early...arrghhh..but whatever it is.....THANK YOU B!...for the things u bought for me...i'm loving it...baby!*muacks!
*18 dec its my turn...wakaka.!

LOve is Life..Life is Love..

2009-12-07T23:34:00.002+08:00

If Love is Life..then my Life is Love too..Whatever happen in life...your love play apart and it will help me thru....To see ur smile,makes me realize that i've someone to lean on to.Thats You.Mohammad Asraf. :)

Happy 1 year Anniversary!!

2009-12-06T00:10:00.008+08:00

well wat happen on our anniversary...we went to have dinner at Fish and Chick at sembawang.i ordered the wrong food..which pissed me off..haha...but bf managed to feed me until im full to the max.Ended our dinner for an hour..haha..

Next we went to Downtown East for a movie...2hour for the show..we managed to watch the Case 39...damn it was a twist story and yea its scary..haha..

after the movie we went for karaks...ahaha...for 3 hour we sang n sang...haha...until 1am.We had so much time together...not worrying about the time.I juz have fun n enjoy every moment we spend..hehe.After karaks..we went for supper...at ard 3am...had our supper....i'm happy for the 1st time that i'm all the way with my beloved BF Mohammad Asraf.I love you b..

Our day ended at 4pm..went back home,sleep through out the day..haha..bf was all knock out.haha..well me too..so the next day we went out again...

We wanted to watch movie again but we could not catch up with the time.so we went jalan2..i bought bf perfume FCUK...and he's happy about it..and we ate prata sausage..damn it was nice..had out lovely day together...home sweet home...i juz love my bf alot...in u i see which other dun see....i love u b..thank you for being the great one.Muacks!

xoxo..031208

Random Thoughts

2009-11-22T01:40:00.005+08:00

Here my pic..incase u forget how i look...haha>3

Today i'm off day and yea...i clean the whole house and my room.Throw away some stuff..and ensure its clean totally.Well...my house full of sick people...haha.One by one we fall...but they're getting better...and here i'm still ok.i guess its due to the rainy day and they fall sick easily.Hope u guys get well soon.

Went out today with BF...went to get some stuff for my room...and i will be going there again when my pays are in...cause i need to buy some stuff for my room.It need a make over,so that i'll stay in my room often. haha. I need some big container for my make up kit..had the space for it already but the container left unsearch...found one juz now at Daiso...but i think it still messy.Hmmm...need extra time to find the rite one...i try juz now but bf falling sick too..so i juz rush n get what i need..and my wants later when BF not ard...hahahaha.

So after that we went to lepak...chill. Feeling the cold wind blew againts us...and the "Nyamok" that keep sucking my bf 's blood...but not mine...maybe because bf have the most blood.haha.So he get irritated by it....and we left...home sweet home.Well...thank you for making me smile....and yea for carried me down the stair...haha...watever it is..i love you BF...till here tomorrow will be werking pm shift...bored sunday.haha....Bf shld be asleep by now..and here i am typing my thoughts for today..till then gd nite! xoxo

*i'm in love with this high japanese bun!

watch movies...

2009-11-18T03:19:00.003+08:00

Yesterday after work Bf and i went to catch a movie.Paranormal Activity.Well...how shld i rate this movie??...ok...its bored at first cause there were alot of talking...but its getting scary towards ending..haha..i get scared too....even there were no ghost seen much but if you put urself in that house or room alone...you gonna cry man...i cant imagine myself getting like that..some people in the cinema screams and shout...too...haha i guess they were scared too...well i think its a nice movie to watch.yea...we wanted to watch 2012...but always at the full house period..bored.So watever.....we get over it....haha. now can't wait for my thai movie on 19/11/2009...its coming soon...fighting action movie....hehe.

Today i went to wash bike with Bf at his blk....hehe...after washing headed to his house...waiting bf to bath and get ready...i was sitting down watching tv with his adik..haha.Soon bf was done he made phone call to book Karoke for us again...hahaha

Actually we went there to karaks...last saturday. Today we went there again..Thanks to Azliana for the intro to the Karaks section..haha...gooshhh..it was damn cheap for us.We pay 9 buck per person and free drink...for 3 hours...haha...BF and i nyanyi sampai naik tekak...sampai serak..haha..well today is Bf day..mentang2 suare die today ok...last saturday tak ok...hehehe...overall i enjoy my day with him...thank you for keeping me happy and smile....hehe. till here..i'm off to bed tomorrow i'm on night shift...never met b'b.....durrhhh.

I Love You..

2009-11-18T01:50:00.003+08:00

Life full of ups and downs.Sometimes its may turn dark,but seriously with BF around life seem bright for me.We have been thru sad and tears together.For the very first time of my life,i found myself loving him so much that i cant imagine myself without him.Over things that happen in our life,i take it as a learning lesson for me.Maybe its meant to be this way.To be with you to go thru this...if i were to go thru it alone....i dont think so i can make it now...so to sweetheart,i love you soo much!Thanks to ALLAH for making me to go thru this atleast with him.You wanna make me smile and forget it...i can. But only when i'm with you b.

To few of my friends...thank you for been there for me.To my sister Intan.Thank you from the bottom of my heart.I hope ur prayer will make my wish come true.Thank you for always supporting me thru all my sorrow.Without you i may not realise.You always been there for me..You know me well enough...pray for me aites....ur prayer would help me.thank you.

Whatever it is...in life,Done cannot be undone.Thats whats bf always remind me.I came to realise it and yess....life cannot be regrets at.BUt its for us to look at it...and its already written in gods hands..no one knows..what would happen to us next....always remember that when your life get dark...always think that it will turn bright...but it took time."Tuhan tak akan menguji hambanya sesuatu luar dari kemampuan kita".

Till then 25/11/2009...waiting.

what a happy day! haha..

2009-11-10T00:28:00.007+08:00

Happy that i'm off day today,Happy that i'm meeting BF today and happy that i'm going out to have some fun...i'm happy for all the things that happen in my life :) Thankfull to ALLAH for still giving me a chance to live another day,to wake up and still hearing my lovely mother voice,my father footstep before leaving to work,my 2 sister who still breathing and snoring beside me,my 3 brothers who still playing game and my lovely boyfriend who always woke me up with his lovely good morning msg without fail...and last but not least...my 2 bestfriend that i always miss- Nurul Huda n Faridah Fodali,Thanks god for still making them my bestfriend and still making them around me.Even we seldom meet but still,i can feel ur friendship ard me guys!!..haha

Today i just spend my day off with Bf.We went to ang mo kio to watch movie but end up no movie cause all the movie was boring.So,we change our plan to something fun...haha! we wonder around and went to mustafa center after that.Bought something and searching for perfume as bf tot wanna buy one for himself...but still he could not find one for himself.But i did!!...i find Paris Hilton's perfumes and i'm loving the smell..very nice.Trust me.haha...bf say wanna buy for me but i rather choose cloth over perfumes...haha.:0)

So we ended our jalan2...and makan at Sakutala.Very nice and yess we're happy with the food.I'm loving it.BF getting tired i know...from his eyes,Thank you for spending ur time for me tau....i love u so much b.You are my only one.haha...till here then i'm logging off...gd nite.

ILY...

11 Month Anniversary!

2009-11-07T00:36:00.006+08:00

Firstly i wanna say Happy 11th Month Anniversary to BF and me.Congrats that we have been this far..and next month we will reach our goals to 1 year.Gooshh..time fly so fast.I dun even realize that next month was the last month for 2009 and here come new year-2010.Time does fly so fast...and now i came to realize that no more time to hang about.its Time to take things seriously and not lean back.

Back to my 11 month anniversary,i'm happy and proud to have you as part of my life.Im glad that i've found the one that im searching for all this years...my soulmate-Mohammad Asraf. :)

Thank you for always been there for me thru thick and thin,in happiness and sadness.You're someone that can never be replace and i promise u that u are the first and last that gonna stay put in my heart cause i love you so much.Thank you so much!!!

Life is about moving on...its a journey that we need to finish.We may start it with a rough and tough one...but always remember that someone out there are always more tougher than ours.Life could be full of tears and pain....same dgn cuace.Yang patah akan tumbuh,Hujan tak selamanya,ia sementare....selepas hujan turun pelangi dan matahari yg menyinari bumi.Same seperti hidup kita.Tak selamanya gelap..akan datang sesuatu yg indah nanti....yg menjadi persoalan cuma lah masa yg menentukan.Watever it is...live life to the fullest...never regret over what u have done before...instead make it a learning lesson...ur past are not mean to forget it mean to be learn and grow from it cause ur past its what have bought u here today.!

Mohammad Asraf...i love you!

xoxo-03.12.08-

Night Safari

2009-11-02T19:22:00.009+08:00

OUR NIGHT SAFARI BEGAN....

Night Safari with Boyfriend!Friday was the day that bf and i went to Night Safari and yess it was rainy day.How bored could that be..walking in the rain and the ghost were hiding.Durrrhh!Lucky when we arrived there,the rain started to fall.We thought that we are saved from the rain..but yes we did but due to the rain,the activity were cancel.For an hour we wondered around at last the train stop and we start our walking...with poncoh!hehe...kite da mcm hantu jugak..haha.but ii guess we look cute in it.hehe...So first,we walk around until we tired...haha..at last we get into the Holloween tram..gesss it was a nice one,after the long walk we get tired.So we sitted down on the tram and it was a release...from the crowd,the ghost.Haha...we were sitted last row,it was a scary journey thru the jungle..haha..at last it was the ghost area..haha..the 1st was the loud bang!it was scary and the ghost can just pop up anytime...

Finally we done with everything...for me i think it was really a good starting for s'pore to do this.It was a new things for us,as u can see...s'pore is not a big country that u can walk all around.So its a good thing that they do this kind of things so that we can explore s'pore better n loving our country.They should built up more entertainment for us so that we dont have to go all around the world for it.Afterall,i'm happy about it and have no regrets and sure BF enjoy it too..till then thats all....see u again...so whats next?hmm...i'm still thinking B!

i need to save up more!!

2009-10-27T03:51:00.003+08:00

One word for right now is SAVED.I got to save up my money not just putting it into my personal saving but an extra saving too.Just ended my talk with BF just now on the phone,yea..we talk and talk....i guess someone is getting matured.Hahaha!But i think yea Bf made sense...we cant just talk without action.Atleast he put some sense into my brain.But i'll promise u one things for sure.....i will cut down my shop ok b?and save up.

Goshh..have to cut down my online shopping and all my WANTS and only buy my NEEDS!Haha..Today i bought shirt for BF and i which cost me $63 buck...and bought our nite safari tickets for $58.haha...i did something before i could save up.Maybe BF saw i'm spending already and he start saying buying what we needs for now je...hahaha.But Oopss...i've bought it.hehe.So for now no more spending...hmmm.

Actually how do we do about saving money?must i hide my ATM card?must i only draw few bucks and spend less....but how do we spend less?cause everywhere is using money.i will try and see how much i can spend extra.haha...To Bf thank u for making me realise that we shld do something for our future instead of buying what we need now and not prepare for future.i love u so so much....and i will prove to you that i will save up! :)

*b...i love u!muacks!!<3

Hari Raya with Frends again!

2009-10-11T15:10:00.006+08:00

SElamat hari raya frends!

ok.we did it last week and this week again.2nd round...haha.Glad to see you guys around,we had fun and yeahhh..jokes again.hehe.I miss you guys and wish we could gather again someday..yaw!What more can i say...we enjoy the time we share.Well same things again..Lorry and 2 car.So no one is left unwanted.haha....semua chip in.Anyway thats all...here some pic.

Thanks to everyone who make it happen!

*to bF..jgn marah2 ey.....love u no matter wat kan?;)i miss u...Thanks for being understanding.

Hari Raya & Happy 10th month Anniversary!

2009-10-05T02:06:00.006+08:00

Yesterday..we managed to gathered all my frends and my sch's classmates.Goshh..i miss u guys.We had fun and managed to go some visiting to our friend's house and mrs Anita.Yea..Bf tagged along...its our 1oth month anniversary...we did not go out and spend our time together but its ok..at least today we managed to play bowling together...hehe..I Love You B!

Here Some pic..

*Selamat hari Raya my frend and miss you guys!

*Bf..Happy 10th month anniversary b...i love you!

Hari Raya

2009-10-01T02:20:00.010+08:00

Hello,

Here some pics of us.....<3

Just started Hari raya today with my family.Yeah,everyone was bz nowadays..so secare kebetullan semua off..Today dad borrow car from kakak and yess..we go visiting.Goshh...i used alot of money..haha..but nvm setahun sekali je mah.So i woke up this morning at 11 plus..mom was trying her best to woked us up...at last she managed to wake us up at 11 going 12pm.Mum wanna go geylang today..so we have to followed her.Lucky got car,if not i'm not going.haha.Went to geylang to bought kuih actually,cause ours at home is finishing soon.haha.Today i bought gold necklaces at $160...in which i think its beautyfull..lagipon,i'm working already should have some things for me to keep thats what mama say...haha...

After geylang..here we are celebrating Hari Raya.....

Today,not meeting BF and not even talking.Just another SMS...i'm bored..hmm..Bz sgt ke org2? sampai takleh ni takleh tuh?haiyohhh...But nvm lah...if we say much later people thought we not being understanding rite??..so best is silent.Let time bring everything...i think things should juz go the way it is...forcing someone or anybody to do what we want them to do..is juz not a good answer.Let them be for who they are..from there we will find the answer to all the question we want to know..thats all i guess...i'm done...i wanna sleep..gd nite i'll update again.

Till here...see ya.

Phobia2...movie!

2009-09-27T01:27:00.003+08:00

Yea2...today i'm meeting Bf and we decided to watch a movie at ang mo kio.We watched phobia2 and i guess...phobia1 is better and scary.This one ok2lah...there were scary moments too...that there were part where i'm hiding behind bf shoulder.haha.I guess its not a waste money to watch thai movie and soon a fighting thai movie is coming on nov...i cant wait to watch it too...i just love Thai movies...cause their movie are worth paying for!..haha...So basically today i went out with bf to catch a movie and go mkn...tomorrow gonna meet bf again..yeah2.Hmm...nothing much to say cause i wanna sleep cause tomorrow i'm working morning shift...goshh..i hope the bed bound pt are discharged already...cause i dunt mind the member case but the Derm case...they juz giving me back ache...haha...well back to work tomorrow...duurrr! i wanna have a holiday..and rest...gosshh when will that be?hahaha....till here i'm off.Gd nite..i'll update again.:)

Btw i bought this contact lens for 4 boxs just for $56.Haha..its cheap i guess..so i bought 3 pair for me and 1 for my sister putri...hehe.Hope to try it soon..haha..

My costal sand palette is here!

2009-09-25T11:37:00.003+08:00

Yess!! at last my new costal sand palette is here.i'm happy about it..i love the colours and the blush too..no regret buying it for $25 plus in ebay and i think its cheaps and good quality too...i've received the item in good condition and its the same items as what i see.haha....and i cant wait to try it out!!....:)

ok cant type any longer...i wanna go eat..yesterday i never eat anything but only in the morning..:( now i'm hungry...hmm..i guess our mind can control our body and everything.its all in the mind set..true..true...

Selamat Hari Raya 2009.

2009-09-23T02:36:00.003+08:00

Firstly i wanna wish you guys out there "Selamat hari Raya".I know i did not managed to send all the SMS to some of my friends out there..but i did send some.haha..atleast if i say here..save sikit.:) Well...This year hari raya means a lot for me.Bf came over on the second day of raya and introduce him to my family.I'm gratefull mum and dad likes him;and thats all i need to know. House was like usual,kakaks and abgs came over...hmmm but it sad me cause i dun have much relatives to go about.Only my father's side cause my mum's side dun celebrate hari raya but Christmas.Hmm..i wish i could go somewhere..but i'm thankfull enough that i'm still here to celebrate hari raya.i'm thankfull for it.Now life seem very worth for me,i still wanna live and move on with life.Things have change so much in different way...i'm happy with it now.

Sometimes at night while i'm lying on bed...i start to think and wonder.Why?How?Then i came to realise that life has more to it.When we just thinking about whats happening to our life,start thinking for others and you will think that you're life not bad as it is afterall.Think of the one you loves and the one who have enter you're life in their own ways...You will start to treasure them more.Kita akan merasa memiliki bila kita sudah pernah merasa kehilangan.i believe that setiap orang yg bermula nya sesuatu dari bawah dan melalui liku-liku kehidupan,di kemudian hari org itu akan mejadi seseorg yg lebih menghargai kehidupannya.

hmm..maybe i should write in malay instead of english??..haha..cause i'm good in malay rather than english.haha...maybe i should try one day ya...well...i'm not going out for raya yet..cause tommorow start working already.Will be going out on saturday i guess..or sunday.depends.

Lastly....to my sweet lil Bf(mohammmad Asraf)...goshh i love you so much to death! haha.He have been there for me all this while...for all the struggle,ups and downs.For the all my sadness and in happiness...When i'm in tears you're there..i still remember the 9th floor when i'm all stress out and in tears,u're there with me and never leave even though we were just friends.You came to me wipe my tears and told me not to cry...and kiss me on the forehead before you went off.How u stay awaked all night waiting for me until 3am plus under my blk,waititng me to came back home.You used to packed for me food and milo in the morning as early as 5.30am just to send me to work and make sure i eat my breakfast(even now u dah bz keje...u still asked me jugak lah..haha).you never stress me out with anything...nothing..goshh..i miss all those moment before.:( But now even you getting bz,You never failed to fetch me from work everyday or send me whenever you could...cause i know u still wanna be there for me.I know you're tired sometimes but you still make ur efforts for it.You bought me things but not for yourself,You always put me 1st than urself..i'm thankfull enough for all the things you've done for me.i swear from the bottom of my heart,i love u so much!How i wish i could spend the rest of my life with you soon...cause i dun need anyone else but YOU. :)

Another step closer...

2009-09-15T02:44:00.003+08:00

Another step closer....<3

*Stronger Commitment.

*Greater Stability.

*Deeper Appreciation.

*Bigger Responsibilities.

Bf bought ring for us today,i think this 4 points play apart in creating a greater meaning in wearing it.

Having this ring makes me elated about my relationship.I'm glad that Bf wanna buy this ring for us even i never talked about it before.Its not that i'm tired of wearing ring on my finger,just that i'm scared that things might be the same again...I guess past is past and moving on is what i'm doing now.Well dunwanna talk about past..we talked about now.Now i'm gratefull to have him and moving forward is what we wanna do.

Ones again thank you for this rings.I'm loving it!.hahaks.

*lastly today,people around me juz pissed me off!i have no mood to talked i dunnoe why..but peoples jus pissing me off!gd nite then..

Swensen..yummy!

2009-09-14T02:27:00.004+08:00

Bf treat me Swensen!!<3

Today Bf treat me Swensen!!..hehe.Its been so long that i never eat swensen,last was when Faridah treat me swensen when she get her 1st pay...i still remember it buddy! :) Now its BF turns...Today i woke up at 3 plus and BF already msg me..."B!!..da bgn lom?da kul bape!". that was the 1st msg i received from him...he's excited about it and so i am.Well..i'm still in my dream land cause i just came back from night duty and today is my sleeping day.But i just need some sleep and i will be fine..So met BF at 4 plus...as usual Bf reached 1st...:)

When to sembawang to take the perfume that i've ordered from my pri sch classmate Ruzanna.Gosshhh...its been very long since we lost contact and now we're back.hehe..well have a lil chit chat with her...things have changes now..and so do people...well i guess...i dunwan to judge her by the look..cause she look like minah..but she noe herself well and still upgrading herself.Thumbs up :)..haha..Done with it..Bf and i went to ah boy to bought new visor for my helmet...cost $25 for it...i told BF why dun buy the local ones..but bf told me local ain't good..well maybe i guess...thanks b! :)

Then its Swensen time!...it already 6.45pm and we still on the Q.Lucky we managed to get in on time...ordered our food and ice cream....i ordered the chilli crab pasta...damn it was good!..and ordered the spicy chicken what..wat..i dunnoe...can't remember.haha..but it was nice too.Then we ordered Hawaiian Pizza,ice cream and drinks.Wow...i ate all up.clear the plates very clean..haha..and so do bf...lapar kot. hehe....goshh i was full at that moment of time...seriously full.Total for food was $71.89. haha...but until now i;m still full....ones again thanks b for the treat.After had our dinner..we went to geylang and yea as usual croweded. Bored. Hot. hahaha..Bf bought me DVD Wujud3.i wanted to watch it so much...and guess what after i watch?...hmm i think its bored. Alot of talking and walking...but yess there were ghost seen on camera.Cool..hmm i juz seen the movie which are coming soon...i cant wait for PHOBIA2...yeah!

Till then i'm off..sleepy already.To bf thank you for noeing me to ur mom.I'm glad she likes me.haha.Thank you for today and everything that you have done.:) p/s:i love you. See u again tomorrow..:)Hugs and kisses.!<3

Meeting BF as usual.

2009-09-09T00:54:00.003+08:00

Meeting Bf as usual... Today,nothing much i've done.Woke up in the afternoon ard 1 plus,house was in mess cause mom was busy cleaning the house for hari raya with Putri.Gosshh...i hate doing the cleaning during fasting month somemore...gurrhhh!Wash up and help them with the house work...done with everything ard 3 to 4 plus.Mom decided to go Ikea at tampines and asked me if i would like to tag along...but i told mom nope...cause i've plan to go out for break fast with asraf.

While waiting for bf to come home from work,i lying down on my bed.Kinda feel sleepy already but Bf told me he was otw home already so i quickly grabbed my towel and shower.While showering bf msg me and told me he went out of the house already...argghh...why i'm always late.As usual bf arrived 1st under my blk..15min later i came down.Yeah..bf was bored cause he have to wait for me..but i know he try to make things ok for me..with his jokes n smile.eleh..i know.

We headed to CWP for break fast as we dont know where else to go.Dua2 dah lemau..perut dah berbunyi mcm tong..hehe.We had our dinner at Horizon.As usual its crowded.Bf went to buy food and drink while i'm sitting down.:) Done with food and stuff,we went lepak2..talk about work,friends and stuff.Bf was unwell..cause he's tired from work and sleepy..so its time for home.

Hmm..now here i am on my bed.Bf was asleep by now..cause he's tired,so i wont disturb him.Poor him..hmm..get well soon ok Bf?ti lau u sakit,esk siape nak amik me alik werk..:( Duurr..i'm back from my leave and tomorrow will be working as usual..afternoon shift.Arrggh..why must we work...i'm tired already.hmm..but i miss working too..wonder how's my patients doing..are they still there or its a different patient already?well..this week i have students to help us out doing the work.i hope tomorrow wont be busy.:) till then i off to bed now,will be updating again..oh yeah...i kinda miss all my attachment mates..when i saw Moon msg me and told me she miss the puma girls..i flash back..and yea i miss u guys.How we enjoy our attachment last year..each n everyone have their own attitude..fathur always be the joker..how i and him like to talked about the indonesian movie"effiel i'm in love"and act it out. ahaha...syahilla..who always dunnoe where to go..and always say"oiiii..sini.."haha.moon and huda who always force me to eat their food when they cant finished it up.hehe...now we move forward and left our foot print behind..and i hope we do look back some days...i miss u guys! :)

*psst..bf dun forget ur promise on sunday..i cant wait!..hehe :) and get well soon dear.im falling sick too.

Happy Birthday To BF!!

2009-09-07T02:29:00.011+08:00

06.09.09...

Yesterday was Bf 22Th Birthday,I'm glad that I've done my part.i know i did not done the best gift yet for you..but what I've done for you now...i never done for anyone before.hehe...

here hows the day we spent...Early in the morning,i accompany Bf to bike shop to trade his X1 to KR...damn the weather was hot..some more I'm fasting...and i keep annoyed BF with my word.."b..cuace mcm ni kalau duduk satu corner minum air mesti sedap.." hahaks...and yes BF was angry..."b, lau taknak puase..g buke je". haha..sikit2 marah...:) kan dah ckp i puase.So we done with the document ard 3pm..and guess i become BF guarantor for his bike...next sat X1 will be in and KR will Be out...I'm excited about it and so do BF...we'll see what the outcome ok b?

After done with that,we went to Geylang.Break our fast there,at KFC.After that,Bought BF's baju kurung,well tis year Bf and i will be wearing black.Hehe.i cant believe that hari raya is juz ard the corner and i'll be celebrating it with BF.geylang was pack as usual,we bought some DVD,foods and drink.Done with it we proceed to our next plan...

Bought Cake for Bf and even i cant surprise him that much but i let BF choose everything on his own.Everything was settle.I'm glad to see BF excited about it.Surprise is a surprise.The place was nice kan b?$89 for that??i dun mind paying...yes it was very nice.I admit i never regret.Well plan goes as what we want it to be...waiting for the time to strike 12Mn,Bf was pretending not noeing...hahha..when i told him its already 12.He smile.It was juz the two of us...but the fun that we had and the laughter we shared.I'm happy.The birthday song i sang,the claps you made,the love we shared.BF was happy about it and i hope you like it b.

1.20am Bf and i decided to go for supper,at mustafa centre.The night road weather was cold and relax.We walk ard mustafa centre..haha..you know i know ey b...BTW thanks b.:) wow..i juz loving it.i love all the night we spend and all the time we spend.So we ended the day by 11 plus am.i'm sleepy already....went home...ZZZ...i realize that i love Bf more and more...and I've learn that love need a good quality time together and communication..that's what make it works. :0)

Today nothing to do i woke up at 5 plus and my family break fast outside.Bought my hari raya shoe at Charles & Keith.Cost me $35 buck...well more things to buy...cant wait tomorrow to mit Bf again.....

I'm done....sleepy already babe...Nite2.

updated..

2009-09-02T02:16:00.003+08:00

UPdates...

well i have been busy with work lately and have no time to update my blog.sorry for that.What happening now...??hmm..nothing much..My dad's birthday was juz over and we had gathering in my house..full house.Everyone was ard...and i'm happy about it.Then next big thing,was Bf's birthday coming on the 6th sept.I totally don't know what to do to suprise him and bought him present..setiap kali tanyer...all he say"i cume nak spend the day with you that would be my biggest present''....duurr..hehe...ask something lah b...waduhh...i dunnoe what to buy for him...help me!!...:) But what i know i'll spend the day with you..no worries. :)

Thats all for now i guess..will keep u guys update what happening aites...i still trying to figure out what to buy and do for BF's birthday...any idea?help me...hahaha....*love...

Congrats!

2009-07-22T00:27:00.003+08:00

Congrats To BF!<3

Finally...a new journey of life will begin soon.HEhe.First i wanna Congrats BF for getting his class 2A Licen and i hope what u always want will come true.R6 b...few more years to go for that ok?But soon...super4 on the way.hehe....im happy to see u happy b.

Secondly,Congrats to BF again for the new stable job u get.ICA.....cool sey b..gaji pun bomb,u are lucky sey b to get into this gov. jobs.lagi now adays its hard to find jobs..i like!!I'm happy when the 1st time u told me that they call u up for interview.You ain't prepare for that too i know.But i'm very sure with the way you are...u will surely make it.Guess what b?At Nite before i sleep,i always pray to ALLAH......"Ya Allah,seandainya Asraf adalah jodoh saya.Kamu dekatkan lah dia kepada ku,berikan lah die pertunjuk mu...bawah dia kejalan MU...dan jauhi dia dari segala musibah.Seandainya dia bukan jodoh saya,temui lah dia jodoh yg baik buat nya dan bahagiakan lah hidup nya.Amin" Everynite i always pray this for You b...

Guess what again?I always believe that Allah is always there...listen to every prayer.Believe it in and it will happen.you know what b??....hmm...The night before u went for interview...i pray to god...."YA ALLAH,jika asraf jodoh saya...kamu berikan aku pertunjuk mu.Beri dia ketenangan agar bisa menjalani interview esk dan dptkan lah dia kerja tersebut." And yess....i get the right result as what i pray for...im thankful.Syukur Alhamdullilah.....Now you get your stable job b...the journey just begin...so dont stop keep moving forwards...and 3 years time we make it there...and from here i know...You're My MAN!!

I'm happy and proud of you b....i know theres something about you that u need to noe ur strength...now that u have found ur strength...used it and achieve ur goals in life ok b?

Congrats again to BF for the new licen and the ICA job!!...yahooo....saturday i belanje b mkn ok?i dah gaji b....wohoho..

ok have to sleep now tommorrow will be working morning shift.gd nite.*muacks!*TTYN

Here I am at Work

2009-07-17T01:26:00.002+08:00

Work and work..haha.<3

Here i am now doing my night shift. awww...lucky that today its not busy like yesterday.My first night shift was very tiring...i cant even have a nap yesterday and i'm doing the work until i ended my shift.Damn i was tired...lucky my sweetes B pick me up at 8am sharp hes already at the gate waititng for me....otw home i fall asleep on BF bike...and i realize that Bf hold my hand and grab my hand to hold him tight......awww...haha.

Today my last night duty...hmmm..atleast its not busy,patients fall asleep and i've done my work and now here i am sitting down and surfing the net..wakaka...yaww i guess thats all. Thanks to BF for sending me to work today and yesterday...and today BF picking me up again from work at 8am...yahoo....*i Love you....gd Nite B'B....! *muacksss!

Back to work........

Sentosa (04.07.09)

2009-07-06T01:17:00.011+08:00

Sentosa (04.07.09)<3

Yesterday BF and i went to Sentosa to do tanning...haha..but end up we swimming and take the sky ride and Luge.It been so long the last time i went to Sentosa so BF and i decided to have break time and explore some places together.Some things in singapore that we need to explore and have fun..i guess i'm having alot of fun yesterday.To remember this time,we decided to bought our picture taken during the sky ride.....gossh the sky ride and Luge was a fun.

Here how the day goes.We meet ard 1pm at wdlands...had our lunch at Mac D and then we straight away procced to Sentosa.Reach Habour Front at 2plus...bought some things at Daiso and ticket to sentosa.We took the tran..monorail i guess from Vivo and reach siloso beach.Damn it was crowded as it was Saturday.So we managed to find a nice spot...get change and we start swimming...gosshhh..its was fun...

After sitting for almost few hour until 6pm plus,we get change and get going for sky ride and Luge....its was scary actually but i'm loving it and so does BF.Now that i've seen things in different way..not like last time...Life have change so much and i treasure every moments of my life now.Having BF ard was the most important part...how he complete every part of me.To find true love is not easy you have to go thru the nasty journey and in that way u will realize that what u always wants is here with you now....and mine is Asraf.

*TTYN. ILY.
*to BF thank you for the Rusty shirt that you bought for me..i'm loving it. *muackss!

Gathering Back...

2009-06-27T01:32:00.011+08:00

We Meet Again>3

Today i went out with my Ex-ITE classmates,we went for sheesha at arab street.It was just a small gathering between us cause some of them could not make it...but we did.Haha...we met ard 5 plus...ok i'm late i know.haha..i'm sorry for keeping you guys waiting.

As we reach Bugis we headed for dinner at Mac,Mooniera was feeling damn hungry in which i dunnoe y.We had some chat about our current life and everyone was moving on with their new life.Each of us have our own path and hopefully we all can make it.I miss all the moment that we have before and now that we were moving with our own way.i'm gonna miss you guys and i'm wishing you guys the best....hahaha.

After sheesha,i tot wanna meet BF at Bugis but due to some bike problem,i have to meet him at woodlands.Bought some food for BF and have a quick chat under the blk.Everything was rushing now a days time goes so fast every lil things that are left behind......i'm missing it.BF send me back home and im miss him.....:( see you tomorrow.ok i'm off to bed cause working tomorrow morning.*TTYN

Soul Garden

2009-06-26T23:52:00.008+08:00

Seoul Garden <3

Yesterday Bf and i went to Soul Garden at Orchard,dunnoe why we just wanna try something new so we decide to go for Soul garden.Haha...it was fun at first,we were excited about it. We stay in there for almost 2 hour,haha....from BBQ to Ice cream.Bf and i made ice kacang and end up not really what we want..so BF decided to make another one but end up keeping the 1st ice cream and the second one BF hide it away.

It was a nice time to spend time together and do cooking.haha....After the food we want to watch a movie but end up it was full house so we have to delay it to Saturday haha...

Picture speak louder than words...:) *TTYN

I'm Spending My Time With You Again.

2009-06-16T23:49:00.001+08:00

Have been busy lately due to work stuff and the rotating shift.I have no time to update on my blog and have not been meeting my Friends...i'm sorry guys.I'm looking forward for the Wild Wild Wet thing...hopefully we can make it yaw!...haha.

Here some updates on my Off day...haha..i've been meeting BF since yesterday.I'm so happy about it.Its been long that we have not spend time together like watching movies and have some space.Yesterday BF and i went for a movie after work in the evening,we decided to watch Drag Me To Hell.I find the movie very scary..haha..there were too many shocking moments but the old lady in the movie just freak me off....its a nice movie actually.

Today... i'm off day.So Bf and i went for another movie again,this time we watch "Ghost Of Girlfriend Past".Met BF at 1pm plus...Bf late again..biase die! haha....1st went to POSB to make new account in which it will deduct the amount that i want to save into another account of mine monthly.So monthly they will deduct the money and i guess thats the way i can save my money.Then we headed to Sembawang to have our lunch there.After food we went to Ang Mo Kio to watch movie,we manage to get the couple seat...hehe...the movie was a love movie i guess.Its a nice movie too....:) and so on after movie we spend the rest of our day together..

Overall i'm happy that BF still have time for me despite his busy time working.Each and everyday i'm falling in love again with him. :) Thanks to BF for spending some time for me.I know u try ur best to make me happy in any way u can,You try to be there for me in all the time i need you and i'm happy for it.Thank you b....You're all that i need.

*TTYN.

i'm missing everything.....

2009-06-07T11:20:00.005+08:00

I'm Missing Everything in Life....

Suddenly something strike my mind,to think of everything in life that have happen before and today...i juz miss a lil things of it.Life is like a movie,its has been created by GOd and we are the actors and actress in the story.Everyone had the same storyline but its a matter of how we solved it and that why god give us the power to think,look,listen,feel and a sense of touch.It a matter of how we cope with the problem.

Talking about coping with problems.....i'm use to be someone who dun look problems as problem,i juz hack care about it.Repeat the same mistake over an over again..and let myself be in the situation for too long.Stress myself out all alone but yet give my smiling face infront of the public,frends and family.But now...i've learnt it from the Best.My Mother.Hearing all the story,i realize that i have the wonderfull mom in the world.She try to understand her children and she willing to fight for us.She have suffered for too long and now that her children have grown up,its time to pampered her with our Love.I always wanna make her happy and proud of me but some lil things i did not manage to be one.Like studying so hard and make her proud...i've fail.But she told me she still proud of me....for being the most understanding daughter and even i'm not good in studies but look at where i am now....still have a job as the Nurse.she still proud of me.Thank You.To my lovely mum,i'm sorry for the tears that i have bought before,for all the stupid things i do that make you mad...for everything.I'm sorry and i love u.You are the reason why i am here today and standing strong.Behind me there lies a strong women.

I'm missing a lot of things...in which i dunnoe what.When i take a look in my life,i find the up and down,the struggle in life.sometime i wonder how and why it happen but thats life,something bad must happen then we came to realize and work for the better.I have no regrets with my life,i'm thankfull for everythings....but yess a lil of it i still regrets.

I miss all my friends who have enter my life in such a wonderfull way.Each and everyone of you have enter my life in your own way.We used to have that gathering and plans,but life is about dealing with your own journey..so few step have to take ahead.Some walked out and never came back,while some walk and still look back.To all,life have to go on but do look back at it sometimes ok? To Faridah,thank you for being with me till now,u always have been the one the there for me thru my sad and happiness.I'm thankfull that god send me an angel from above as my frend.The friendship we have can never thrown away...its like the river that always flow...:)

To Nurul Huda,thanks for being there too....even we have seldom time to spend time together,you still my friends and with you both ard its completed our friendship..i love you guys and yes i miss you two!

For here i am today,i'm happy about everything.Always treasure every moment of your life cause you can never turn back the time and feel sorry or regrets about it.No point.Move your life ahead and be someone better in life cause in the end its you yourself who walk your own life.

Lastly to BF..thank you.No word can describe the feeling i have for you.You juz someone who i appricate and love.I hope this new relationship bring something good to us.Cause i dunwan to find any other person but you.I have everything and i'm thankful and i hope we can make it till the end....our dreams.

*TTYN.

Saturday...and today.

2009-05-31T18:03:00.003+08:00

Saturday...

Went to TTSH for course to attend at 12 and ended at 5pm.I woke up slightly late cause i tot BF was sending me to work but due to the rain i decided to go on my own..eh with Nurul..thanks to Nurul for waiting for me.hehehe....

Ok the course was a fun one i had a great time....TTSH was a friendly environment to work and i knew there is always chances for each and everyone of us to improve ourself.So end the course at 4 plus but BF came late ard 5pm so i was waiting for bf with Nurul...

We went to Town for a movie..Terminator at Lido at 7pm.Grab some food at long John and have some time together....i'm happy about it.Thanks to Bf for the day and jgn lah marah2 or stress2 ok..i love you....and today im missing you b...:)

Spending Times..(Sunday and Today.)

2009-05-26T23:10:00.009+08:00

Spending Times...<3

Sunday,BF and i went to Town to acompany me for shopping.I have the money but the things does not caught my eyes.Here how the day goes,i met BF at 2 plus.That day we decided to take the train,wanna chill and seat back so we decided to take the train instead of bike.Yeahh..we enjoy taking the train,alot of things we can catch up during the journey.The first things we do when we reach town was...FOOD!I had my pay so i decided to treat BF makan..but he choose to eat rice...so we decided to eat at Far East.haha...save! :) After food we wonder ard Town for quite some times,headed to wisma,HMV and so on...yet we did not manage to find somethings for ourself.BF asked if i wanna go to Vivo City....of course i say OK.

On our way to Vivo...BF and i took some pictures of ourself inside the train.Suddenly i find it cool.Haha....BF and i had plenty of time for each other,its been so long that we never took the train.haha.Reach vivo city and we walk ard,thoughts of buying flip flop and bags but i did not managed to find a nice one.Durrhh..i know BF try hard to help me searching for it.Im done with it and i'm tired so we grab some food at Burger king...then went outside Vivo to look at the scenery.As we seat down...our past strike us.The past that have been history to our life and now it came passing by.We shared some stories of our past and have some chit chat...its been so long that we never seat and listen to each other and shared our story...after talks,home sweet home!Overall....i'm having good time together and i'm looking forward to next meet up.:)

Monday....

Start my job as usual...have some talk at TTSH.Azliana and i cant stop cracking up stupid jokes and i cant stop laughing.Azliana was covering her mouth during the lecture as we laugh out all the way.Stupid jokes as usual....we stop until the presenter called Azliana and ask her question..hahahha...lucky she managed to answer.Talk was bored....till 5pm.After that Intan,Azliana and i went to Novena Square to look around....headed to Animal,Esprit and Cotton ON.....haha....we shop like our own shop...try few cloth on ourself.Azliana managed to buy few cloths for herself...which total cost of....$$....Intan shop total of $60 on cotton on...while i bought some dress,spagetti stripe(purple) and skirt...$$$....after the long hour we grab some food at KFC.oh ya..BF station so managed to sms him only....B..so now u know ey...biler i beli dress tu...haha..cute kan...wakaka.

Today.....

Met BF again..haha...ended my shift at 3pm and met BF at causeway point.Grab some food and chill....Durr..i miss you in which i dunnoe why....Im tired now...cant type any longer...this few days..life have been.....fun......haha.Gd nite...at this hour...BF tgh syok2 karaks!...biler nak balik pon taktau...esk nak hantar org g keje...hahaha takleh bangun aru tahu..haha..nite2.

You'll be the prince and i'll be the princess....haha.*TTYN

2 weeks and the pays are in..:)

2009-05-24T00:43:00.003+08:00

I'M Lovin IT!<3

Today early in the morning,i was awake by the phone ring.Intan sms me and said that our TTSH orientation paids are in..i was like really?i asked her how much she get and yeah...quite a lot for 2 weeks pays i guess.Mine slightly different but quite a lot to for me..i'm happy about it.1st thing in the morning i ask my dad to draw some money and buy breakfast for family,the balance i told my dad keep the change for him.ahaha...he was like really?Thanks a lot. papa say "lau kita murah hati dgn org,rezeki kita akan sentiase masuk".

After cleaning the house,i went to near by salon to reborn my hair.Haha..can't stand the frizzy and that i have to keep on blowing it every morning...so i decide to juz reborn it.Lazy is the main reason.:) So i get my hair reborn at $60,Treatment $20 plus colour the whole hair at $40. Total i spend on my hair $120.Goosshhh..the effect of 1st reborn was yeahh flat...hate it.But i'm used to it...soon it will be ok.haha..but overall i'm loving it.Hahaha....

In the evening,we went to CWP with my family and Intan bought some things for DAd,While intan give mama $100..haha...i bought some make up for myself.Mineral foundation,mascara and few stuff.Then,we treat the whole family at Pasta Mania.Total we spent at Pasta $109 but after discount we managed to get it for $90 plus...Thanks to BF for giving the discount.haha....

I had fun today and tomorrow i will be meeting BF>i miss him very the much and yeahh..still balance for shopping. :) Cant wait for next pays..cause many others things to do and save money..yeah2...Alhamdulilah and syukur atas rezeki yg diberi.Amin.

I Love My Boyfriends!<3

*TTYN

Went for a movie yesterday...

2009-05-20T00:03:00.007+08:00

Yesterday....<3

I did nothing much went for company induction talk and sign up NTUC member..haha.Went for mask fitting at 12pm and manage to get the right mask.well u know swine flu is ard and anytime it might strike s'pore...My frend Nurul was unwell,she went to TTSH in patient clinic and get in for free..so there she goes with 2 days MC..gerek pe.Azliana was MC too yesterday,left me and Nurul..and Today..left me and Azliana.Ended the company induction at 3.30pm and met BF for a movie...:)

Yesterday BF and i went for a movie,yesshh we are movie freak rite now..haha.OK. Yesterday BF and i went to catch a thai movie Fireball at ang mo kio.Its a thailand movie and i'm rating this movie 4 star...cause i find the action move was cool...and yes i find it really cool.Their move was like WOW it remaind me of ong bak and other thai move too.I always have fun watching thai movie cause i find thier movie are worth.well its a no regrets for BF and me...if u guys love action movies..shld watch.
Before we went for the movie BF and i grabbed our dinner at Subway.Haha...mcm paham jer aku.The Q was long and i have to Q up while BF seated down waiting for me.It was funny in which i dunnoe y..BF keep sending me msg...and i cant stop laughing...this small lil things always brighten up my days and i will remember it for the rest of the days..:)

I'm missing BF yesterday and today..I cant wait to meet him tomorrow.

Well let me tell u guys....Love is not about having n spending the good time but its about who you spend your time with.WE never know what tomorow will happen to us but we both will make it beautyfull together.And if you're not ard with me for today and tomorrow...then i rather not have today and tomorrow.And will you give me my tomorrow?

I miss you.. *TTYN

1 week have gone...

2009-05-17T01:46:00.004+08:00

One week have gone...<3

One week have gone...and still going strong.Assessment after one another,yet we manage to complete it.I had fun with Nurul and Azliana around,without them i wont be able to laugh everyday.Lagi2 Azliana..haha i cant stop laughing.i will miss u two when we separated into our own ward.Being a nurse is not easy,patients life are in our hand and if we don't know what to do or make a stupid mistake...one life will be gone.We nurses are not trying to save patients life but at least try to help them recover from what they suffered.Nursing is something which i never expected to be into,cause i always hated science for which theres too many things to remember and yeas..i can't remember them all...slow learner i guess.But come to serving others I'm good at it..haha...For some reason i join nursing was the stable jobs,money matters.But all that was what i wants at the first place.Soon as i attached to wards,i 've learn alot....learn how this patient stay strong in dealing with their life in that condition.A smile is always a starting point for everything,ones u give the friendly smile,patient will judge u.They will not give u trouble.haha.

I've learnt a lot from Nursing.Joining this course will never make u regret trust me.Its a career that you will never stop learning.Everyday there will always be something to learn.I always been a lazy person who just want to enjoy life the way its is.But i realise that if i don't push myself to work hard i will never know anything about my patients and without knowledge,i can killed any of the patients for my own mistakes.To the people out there to be part of the Health dept is something which u will never regrets...they will always provide us if u yourself wanna work hard.

Ok lately i have been very busy with my new job,unable to catch up with my friends and even love ones.I have lesser time now a days and soon will be much lesser.But i hope that i will spare sometime for them,cause without them its a Lil struggle for me.Yess..i miss u guys!

In LOve.....

Bf have been sending n picking me up from work...when i think of it,i just could not believe that he would do all that for me.To wake up at 6.15,bought Milo and mee for me and send me to work.I'm Thankful that god send him to me,in which i will take good care of him :) *ily

*ttyn

TTSH Orientation..

2009-05-13T21:48:00.005+08:00

Hey..i am New!<3

11 May was my first day at TTSH,no longer as a student but came as Assistant Nurse.To start all over again makes me pressure..arrghhh..Check list have to been done within 3 month and we are under probation for 6 month.Wayao! I feel the pressure already now.3 days have past and everything went as smoothly but just need to get back to the morning wake up call.Hehe.

3 days training and orientation was fun i guess...it make us flashback of what we have learnt so far from school.I'm glad that i have choosen this path as my career,have to work and manage my time well.I hope im doing fine and so for the rest.

Well i never choose CDC as my first choice but i get in to CDC...i wonder how its like to work in their environment cause i usually work in the ward but i believe that everything happen for a reason and i know there must be something good for me there and its a new learning experience for me too.so i dun mind as long im still working as a nurse..haha..

*TTYN

sad enuff...:(

2009-05-11T00:02:00.008+08:00

Its Ok...

How does it feel to be compared by your parents?Of you and your sibling?Hmm...well the feeling isn't nice at all.It happen like few years ago...life seem better now but sometime your past will haunt u back.

Here what happen...i was joking with my mum for my money that she have borrowed,and i dont know why she get angry over it.You know your parents when they get angry they will say a thousand kind of words that hurt you.Not much but the effect was wow...

Suddenly i just cried...in which i dunnoe why.I feel suck....alone.I dunnoe who to talked to or even share my thoughts.Hmmm....feeling cant described how i feel,i need some thats all i know.I never ask for much but juz a little bit of understanding...

Today i met Faridah,yesss..she the only person who know me inside out.She know how i struggle to get where i am here today.To be someone for who i am now is not easy...i have to go thru life with different kind of experience..Thanks to Faridah who never fail to listen to all my stories,I always thought that life is not as beautifull as we think and always think that life is never a happy ending.But she sometimes have made me realise that life a worth to live for.When i think of others who are willing to fight for their life juz to live and here i am not fighting for anything.Thank you for being there atleast even for a while. :)

i have nothing else to say but i need someone.......:(

*TTYN

Yesterday is Our DAy.

2009-05-09T13:18:00.008+08:00

Treasure All The Time You Have<3

Yesterday went out with my BF,we went jalan-jalan around.I had fun time spending my day with Him yesterday.Even though we did not get to go to the place that we have planned.I still treasure every moment that we spent and yes im looking forward for other days too.

Basically,yesterday i meet BF at 3pm i think so...Someone plan siang2 tapi datang lambat huh.I was so hungry so i told BF to bring me to CWP 1st to grab some food.We headed to CWP and have our lunch at Long John Silver.Then we headed to jalan2....hehe.

Then at night we went to town to catch a movie but the movie was not there and the time was all at late hour...i'm sad. But BF say its ok and so we went to grab some Famous Amous Cookies and sit down outside TAKA.I had fun time with him yesterday....even we did not get to watch the movie yet the presence of u make it worth while.So thank you BF.Btw that was the 1st time i

went to town without dressing up well,haha...dulu2 selalu kai kasut.Now with BF,he teach me how to be simple and with him ard im OK with it.

We headed to sembawang to have our dinner.We order some food for ourself and Banana Split. hehe....While eating,suddenly i received a SMS.Guess who?? BF send me sms....say.. "I LOVE YOU" i was like errrkk!! depan mata pon nak sms..but i know he always did that...and yes i love you too...so i decided to reply " ok..I love You Too." hehe....and we both just smile.
Haha...Gosshhh i miss all the happy moment we had.

OK till then gtg got to go to werk at tepak sireh...haha. *TTYN

Graduate Finally!!

2009-05-07T01:26:00.009+08:00

Finally I Graduate....<3

Finally Graduation have come to an end.Farewell to all my ITE friends and Hello to my new nurses Friends!...haha.I'm glad that i've completed my Nitec In Nursing.After the 2 years of struggling and hard work,now everything have came to an end.2 years seem so long for me at 1st but now 2 years have past and now going to be on my own.TTSH is waiting...on 11 May.

What happen today was...this morning when 1st i woke up was to see if its still raining or not. Yes it is.BF woke me up at 6.50am,had my bath and quickly get change into my uniform.BF picked me up and yes it still drizzling,poor thing BF have to pick me up still despite the rain.I was so happy to see him this morning,i dunnoe why.Maybe cause thats what i wanna look forward to every morning i woke up.Haha when he reach,he get wet.Cian...and still we continue our journey.

Reach my school and we had to take our temperature.Normal.Guess what BF and i had the same temperature...36 degree.:)Graduation went on smoothly.Finish everything,BF and i make a quick run...too many people and arrgghh..its hot.So we make a move.Aacompany BF back home to pack his cloth cause he will be working at 5pm,grab ourself some food at KFC at Sebawang.BF send me back home before he went to work.Hmmm....i was to tired,i fall asleep as i reach home.Poor BF have to work.

So here i am....Graduate from ITE College East.I'm happy that i have made this far and to my new career in TTSH,i hope its a steping stone for me.I hope i would be able to cope with the new working environment and i think i should be doing fine cause i already have some exprience during my attachment there.I cant wait to get back to work cause i wanna start on my planing.

Good Luck to myself and 11 May a new journey will begins.......

To MOON: Good Luck on your paramedic course,i know u get do it. :)

To Fathur: Wish you all the best in your NS life and yes he made a good nurse actually. :)

To Syahilla: Get a job soon and all the best,till we meet again next time babe :)

To Jessica Kaur: Be in poly life may not be easy for you but i'm sure you'll get used to it and i know u can do better,till i meet u again in ur next attachment,beware cause i can be ur Nurse. haha...i miss u babe and thank you for being a good frend of mine and Thank You.

To my Beloved BF: Thank you so much for attending my graduation day.Without you i may be alone...but to have you seated down there and looking at me,its more than enough.I love you so much...Thank you B.

*TTYN.

Have Some Fun Today...

2009-05-05T03:02:00.003+08:00

TO Spend My Day With You Is All Im Looking Forward Too...<3

Finally Today i meet BF for long hour...yeah!!What happen was..BF suppose to be working at station today..but this morning i received a msg "B..guess what?i'm home." I was like "HUH" haha..but excited at the same time cause at least we can meet up today and spend time together .Due to the packed schedule we had,so little time to spend.Finally today>3

Suppose to meet BF at 1pm but end up bab ade org terlelap...we end up at 3pm.Lagik ade hati ckp aru abis mandi nak mkn konon..haha...wayao!So BF send me to TTSH to take my uniform..wow due to the swine flu,the hospital was tightly check.It was crowded down there,luckily my uniform department does not took too long.Kejap je.Now i'm suffering from flu...but not flu babi!..haha.

Ended everything and we proceed to next destination...Go makan! yeah i'm hungry....Thanks eh B...dah "Ouch" kan org.....better watch out!!...u....arrgghhhh! :)

Anyway overall i had fun with you and even though we have to meet n over come someone that u dun like..haha.Trust me,No one else matter.Only YOu.Thats all..i'm going to bed now....today morning have to wake up early to do my licen...gd nite peeps!.my stupid sister intan stop it eh...nak dtg graduation aku sorg2..irritating!..:) *TTYN

*Get well soon BF yg dah berjangkit my flu. Jiwe.ILY

Happy 5th Month Anniversary!

2009-05-03T04:45:00.004+08:00

Happy 5th Anniversary Asraf!!<3

Now at this hour i just hang up the phone with my beloved Boyfriend,Asraf.We did not realize the time...goshhh..Before we hang up the phone..we realize it was our Anniversary! Quickly Asraf told me he wanna put down the phone...haha..we both know that we gonna wish each other.

This was what he send to me.....and im touched!

"Etri...its oready 5mths being 2gether wif u..n i assume datwe had gone tru alot.....n theres still more in future perhaps...u made me change my way of lyfe n u made me u'stand e simple thing called LOVE..ahacks...:) i just want ya 2 noe dat i love u n i will always be loving u n i will always be loving u hunney..dun u ever feel dat ur being desserted by me...ur e special star dat keeps shining on me wen im in e dark...so plz stay by side :) Happy 5th anni! with love.....
Md Asraf..:) "

After reading that sms he send to me,i feel like crying.In which i dunnoe y...i'm touched and plus..plus.Having to go thru hard relationship in the past have taught me enough about Love. Love is a feeling of two people that no others can feel the same way like we do.Love is about accepting someone's imperfection as perfect things to us.Its true that love can make you blind,but we as human have to open our eyes.Realize what others say about ur relationship,if people can see it as unhealthy relationship...open up ur eyes and think.If its healthy...move on.

I think i have went thru hard enough in my past relationship.How i struggle through up and down.How things happen the way u never want it to happen.Never expected the unexpected things to happens.How many tears u cried and how u lead ur life with depress,stress,anger and no other option.My past is something i dunwan to remember but past are meant to be remembered.Cause thats whats keep u going on now.

I always have been searching for something in life, and not yet to be found of what i really want.I'm counfused.Till this very moments, God send me this wonderfull angel from heaven.Md Asraf Bin Abdul Rahim.When 1st i met him...i noe something about him that i want to noe more.But seriously i have no ideas of going into relationship with him...were juz wanna be friends.But yeahhh.....feeling cannot be control.I admit I LOve him even more after the 9th floor incident.Till now i'm still in love with him....:)

Now i have found what i really wants and needs in life..thats YOU! Asraf. No one else matter to me...i hope this relationship would bring us to somewhere where we want it to be...the 26.Amin.

Seandainya Tuhan mengizinkan

Ingin aku terus bersamamu

Biarpun pedih dugaannya

Rela aku menghadapinya dengan sabar..

Seandainya Tuhan mengizinkan Cintamu mekar bersamaku

Ingin aku membahagiakan hidupmu

Tak pernah ku termimpi Untuk bercinta denganmu oh sayangku

Tapi dah tersurat kita bertemu dan jatuh cinta

Sekiranya kau dapat terima aku seadanya

Itulah buktinya keihklasanmu..

Andainya Tuhan megizinkan ingin menunaikan Segala impian yang lama terpendam

Andai kita ditakdirkan terpisah jauh di mata

Namun hati tetap sayang dan merinduimu

Tiada siapa dapat melenyapkan cinta di hatiku Hanya Tuhan saja yang berkuasa

Aku harap engkau masih menyayangi diri ini Kerana kutidak sanggup berpisah denganmu

Kenangilah saat-saat indah percintaan kita

Semoga abadi kisah cinta kita

Andai kita ditakdirkan terpisah jauh di mata

Namun hati tetap sayang dan merinduimu

Seandainya Tuhan mengizinkan Cintamu mekar bersamaku

Ingin aku membahagiakan hidupmuSelama-lamanya...

Ok...got to go to bed now...tomorrow got wedding functions to attend with BF!...Night2..*TTYN

Tepak Sireh..a learning experience.

2009-05-03T04:30:00.005+08:00

Today..did nothing much.What a saturday...Nurul,Intan and i have to werk at Tepak Sireh at Bugis for one event.I dunnoe what the event is about but its important for them i guess.So we were given our area to take care of.I have 5 tables and per tables like almost 10 people.Basically what we do is that just like waitress..served them,clear the tables and stand.Hahaha...it was a new experience for us,for Nurul and me i guess cause Intan have werk there for severals of times.I had fun doing the job...serving others! I know that Nurul and intan had fun too..lagi2 Intan...kene suap dgn manager..ehem..ehem..haha.Funny la that manager...but overall he was ok lah...he teach us a few things,here and there.He eat alot man..goshhh!haha...a learning exprience for me today..yipee!

*BF jangan marah2 ey...keje je kan..hehe. Muacks!

1st May...

2009-05-02T03:43:00.006+08:00

When BOREDOM strike<3

Did nothing much today..Stay at home with family.Today is my parents anniversary,so mama is treating the whole family a dinner.Happy Anniversary to may parents!*cheers.

My sisters and i,could not sleep tonight.Too hyper today dunnoe why...we took some pictures as we were bored...gosshhh..kinda miss my long hair..ahhh...i can't stand this stupid look short hair..thanks to mama!If not because of her promise,i will keep that long hair forever...But nvm,what have done cannot be undone.I hope its grow faster...Amin.

Seriously im gonna keep it short today.I have nothing special to write,only about my parents anniversary...well parent's love do play an important role for the childrens.It give the impact to your child,the love of a family which money cant buy.A parent have to love each other 1st than they can love their child...and a child have to love their parents 1st and they will learn to love themself.So its start from the roots basically.I love my family no matter what cause in the end i realise that no one else gonna help you when u're in trouble but ur parents will and willingly.If not because of them, life would not be good as today...and me,would not have been this strong.Thanks god for creating my two wonderfull parents.Loved.

To BF..when??..haizz!

Goshh..what a day!

2009-05-01T02:19:00.013+08:00

ETRI YAYANTI<3

"OK" Thats the only word that can describe my day today.It was boring in certain part and it was "ok" in some part.I hate it.Let me tell u guys how it goes.Same old shit...wake up and u realize that the sun have rise and the glow of it shine bright on my face.I noe today would be a boring day cause BF working FULL shift and the best thing was i'm not going out.Well i did in the end for a while..acompany Intan bought some durians at CWP.So i take the opportunity to meet BF.Sekejap pon jadi lah dari takde langsung...dah besok station.OK...today seriously nothing much...Faridah came over at my house and sang few songs,eat and we go to cwp.tats all...And now at this hour...BF still outside waiting for pay at Down Town east.I dun get to meet him and now i'm not talking to him either.Walauweh...Boringggg!!Ok i'm lazy to talk about today.

Lets talk about Yesterday.....

"HAHAH" thats for yesterday,in which my lovely sister intan wanna go for a jog.Ok the story is like this......ermmm..ermm...:) Intan juz came back from shopping with mama...i was busy eating Mac Spicy and intan already get change..."woit..yg lain maner?cepat lah kate nak jog!" i was like what the hell...so there we go,with our shorts and shoe.

As we were running we saw Athira boifrend on our way to meet nurul...Nurul nak step marah2.One more time she send that msg..intan gonna scream.hahaha.

Met Nurul with her brother,Mahathir.haha.ok..ajid...nicer that way.So our journey of jogging began....jogg...and joggg......walau...i cannot take it...the journey was a kurang ajar one..what the hell...ade short cut taknak amik...arrgghhh...

Best part came.....:) Intan wanna challenge wif Nurul's lil bro for a sprinter.So Intan ran..yeah...i tot she was fun..look like she was fast...Zoom....masuk lah time corner...wah intan corner......

BUMP!!!..guesss what??? Intan fell down...the way she fell like a fat lady that cannot balance herself....i tot what the hell she's doing..sniffing the grass?Haha...it was very funny...seriously.We shld have record it.Nurul and i cant stop laughing...The most funniest part is...dah jatoh kalang kabut sey bangun...Hhahaha.Mcm cartoon! Mesti paisey sey die...lagi kat tepi road.Godness sake..what the hell my sister is doing..what is in her mind?...haha

So rescue came Faridah with her unstrile glove and cotton.Intan was ok.So we continue playing badminton.Ajid became the judge...counter i asume.Kelakar la tu budak kecik..at least he made us laugh...Faridah taking too much and Ajid say to her "Jangan banyak cakap,tutup mulut" hahahaha...terus kene kick..haha..ciann..tu lah nak main tipu jer..haha..lain kali SHHHH! :)

Game ended so called it a day..BF came after werk...join me to play badminton.Intan was not ard so he decided to play...until his sweat shower him with love..haha..we stop playing as intan came,and back to home sweet home.Well i atleast feel happy yesterday rather than today..

Hmm..i have nothing much to say.But BF biler nak kelua lagi nih???tak boring ke??

*TTYN

2009-04-30T22:37:00.012+08:00

Times... Md Asraf & Etri Yayanti<3

I know it hasn't been too long but I love you soo
Don't care what people say, I just wanna let you know

With out you I'd be so confused, I'd be lost *at heart*

Your like the fire in my day's and heart, your my spark

Like my soul mate, make me blush when I see your face

The one I wanna be with when I wake up everyday

And if we're havin' problems I don't wanna see you mad

Caus your like the air I breathe, your all that I have

You, all that I need, set my life at ease

And I love (and I love) boy I love you

You, all that I need, set my life at ease

And I love (and I love) boy I love you

The very first time that I laid eyes on you I knew

There was a vibe, a special one between us two

There's many seasons to be spent that we'll go thru

Even thru the cold weather you know I'll hold you

I know I make mistake's but I'll never stoop low

Your the motivation for me reaching my goals

Your the one and only one I'm thinking about

You already know this but I wanna say cause your

You, all that I need, set my life at ease

And I love (and I love) boy I love you

You, all that I need, set my life at ease

And I love (and I love) boy I love you

Friday the 13th

2009-04-29T01:58:00.004+08:00

Friday The 13th<3

Yesterday my BF and i went to watch Friday the 13th.we managed to get in at 9.45pm at CWP.Damn the show had too much violent on it...Jason the killer juz kept on killing people but in different way....goshhh i cant stand it. But BF was all the way watching it..starting je die dah terperanjat...haha.I was not scared at 1st as i've seen this kind of movie before but when it came to the killing part..argghh it was disgusting.I hate to see how people get killed or even die. haha..but overall the movie was ok lah.

Actually BF and i wanted to see ''Jangan Tegur'' but we did not managed to get in on time.So we missed it.Durrr!

Yesterday i juz went out with BF at 1 plus.Met him under my blk and he sent me to TTSH for my medical check up.*Thanks to BF for making my check up a normal one..i think u noe wat i mean..hehe :) Ended the check up ard 4pm,we grab some Fast food at Yew tee.BF teach me this new methods how to eat whipped potato with hands...we messed up the entire tray.

After food,company BF to met MP...due to some fines for parking illegally.Luckily,MP agreed to cancel the fines.haha.From there we rush to CWP to catch a movie.

i had some fun with him..it feel so long that we never catch a movie together.I miss those days.Life will be getting bz and busier for both of us..two more weeks for holidays and off to werk.I hope we would be able to spare some time for ourself.

Today BF at work,so i'll just stay at home and did some housework today.Wash the toilets and clean the house...woke up at 2 going 3...gosshhh.Well nothing much to say...as im typing this,there this insect interfere in between.i just smacked it one side..ahaha..and i guess its under my bed now..farewell insect..haha...i dunnoe what to type....tommorrow have to go to school to take my transcript and my hp.Till then TTYN. :)

Yesterday and Today=Bored.

2009-04-26T17:10:00.009+08:00

Yesterday...I woke up at 12 plus,Mama was busy surfing the Internet. Everyone was at home and dads working. Today no one goes out,caused at night have wedding to attend. It was a boring day yesterday,BF busy at station. But at 4pm BF called say he had a called at Blk 115..it was funny...i can see him by my window...and he can see me too...haha. Gossshh...that was 1st time i saw him on called.

Than mahgrib passed by,we get ready to attend wedding function. As we reach there yesterday night,i saw all my anak sedare...awww...they're cute. adorable. funny. Had our food and hang around for quite some time there..

All ended around 10pm...I'm tired already...and so the rest.

Today...

Nothing much to do now....i juz surfing the net and wait for BF finish his work at 10pm. I miss him a lot...cant wait for tomorrow. :) i miss you b.

I MISS YOU!......TTYN.

2 days back...

2009-04-26T15:52:00.010+08:00

2 Day Back.....<3

2 days back,the day where i suppose to give BF his present that i bought. Yes i did give him. I dunno how to give it to him or react. That day I'm meeting Faridah at 6pm but ended up at 6.30pm...late huh?But that's normal to us. BF pick me up and send me to CWP...guess Faridah was shocked on how fast i get there..haha.Met Faridah at the same old place with BF accompany me...sat there for 15min i guess,BF got to get back to work.Left my helmet n Present inside helmet bag at BF working place.So Faridah and i headed for our dinner.Had our dinner at KFC..haha...we bought 2 pc meal at $4.50 and yess...we managed to get some free extra food..damn extra,until we have to packed them.

After food,we went to the library as faridah had to finished up her homework and had to used the wireless.Baru duduk 30min the library dah nak closed. I did not get to read my magazine..errhhh...so we end up standing outside the library...and end up...taking pic..haha...

After taking all this crazy pic,we went back to CWP. Cause BF finished work at 10.30pm..Faridah and i had some chat b4 we went back..its been long time that we never had the old same thing we used to do b4.Btw Thanks for never say "NO" to me.haha...i had great time with you,Girlfren.

BF came and Faridah still there waiting for Yayat.haha..its getting late and i have to go,sorry GF that i cant accompany u till Yayat came.

Bf send me back home,as usual.....i miss him. I hate to see him go...arrgghh..Boring.But BF promise me to talked on the phone that night.BF text me saying Thank you for the slipper that I've bought for him...I'm glad that he liked it. :)

That's all for the past 2 days...TTYN.

What a tired day...Gosshh.

2009-04-24T14:37:00.005+08:00

*BF and Me<3>

Im so tired yesterday...slept late again yesterday talking on the phone with BF till 5am..wayau! And this morning i woke up at 2 plus when BF called me.He had been to work and im still sleeping soundly..haha.

Later will be meeting my bestie Faridah at CWP.Lepakss again.Been so long that we never catch up..another reason juz to see BF too. haha. He have been very bz this few days and we spent lesser time together...less n getting lesser...But its ok...cause we have alot of plan ahead of us. And yesss..i miss you.

I have bought something for BF but not sure if i wanna give it to him today or other day. I wanted to give him suprised but i spoiled my own plan. i did not realise that i've send the wrong msg to wrong person. so yeasterday night,he ask me "u ade hide someTHING dari i?'' haha...and he forward the msg to me....and i was like,what the ??. He find out n it no longer a suprise. Bodoh nyer aku!!...haha...but BF still can say he will act dunnoe....haha. I guess,i juz give it to him today and see what the outcome later.

Now already 3.15...and my sister intan still not cooking...arrghhh im hungry! She still can dance n sing ard the house..i feel like beating her up.haha. You guys should see her face rite now....with her long sleeping pants n her regular uniform..haha. Same old shit different day. Geramnyeerr! ''Intan!!!! masak lahhh! TOLONG LAH!!!'' hahaha.

I dunnoe what else to write...i'll update again tonight about today. till then see u guys ard again..*TTYN Etri

SLeep Late again But Thankks to Intan!

2009-04-23T05:34:00.003+08:00

Intan Sari,

Firstly wanna say now its already 5.40am...intan had finally finish up my blog.A big thanks to her..another sister helping me out..haha.Gosshh..intan n i have been sleeping really late this week,my eyes is killing me.Once again Thank You..now that i'm lovin this blog..hehe

Ok..basically today nothing much to say.Nurul,intan n i went to TTSH to do medical check up but i have to come again other day as there were not much time.Had our lunch at Novena Square,Nurul met her fren..i dunnoe whos his name..cant be bother. haha. BF was all the way sleeping at Station so there were silent on my phone.

Back to CWP at 7pm..Nurul treat us MAc Cafe..haha..she fight with the manager juz to get back her $2 off..haha..she say "coustomer is always right wat?" haha...lepas kan geram ke?hehe.so she win n get her $2 off..happy?..:)

Yeasterday 22 April...our friends Rasidi's Birthday...his 21th b'day..haha...intan and i decided to give him a call in camp to wish him. We sang a birthday song for him...haha..funny sia. well all the best for you and ur sexy babe wannabe..takleh angkat. Ok..chill n maintain..semoga panjang umur n murah rezeki.

well nothing much to say..Bf at station today..so we juz talk on the phone,and 2morow meeting him.Anyway gd luck dear tomorrow for ur prac...same dgn Faruq lagi..jgn buat malu i plak..haha. Faruq..gd luck to u too..haha..selamat ah ehk...hehe.

till than im going to bed now....*TTYN Etri.

KL on April 4 for 3 days 2 nite(memories)

2009-04-20T03:42:00.000+08:00

4 April was the best day of our life. Been and back from KL for 3 days was a fun one. We started off with an early morning at Custom. Everyone seem excited..thru out the journey intan was all out.Non stop talking..haha..maybe she's happy i guess. At 7am we reach Larkin,had our breakfast at macdonald.Then headed to our bus...there were laughter while we were making our way there.but im not sure what its all about..but its funny!..haha..JOkes and jokes.....till KL...well pictures tell a thousand words, so let the pictures do the talking...

*Thanks to BF for acompany me. ILY

Till then..will see again in our next trip, Thailand??. TTYN.

xoxoxo ETRI xoxoxo

New Begining of my life....

2009-04-19T21:06:00.000+08:00

Me and Putri Ananda. <3

At last i finally had a blog!!..Thanks to my lil sister Putri Ananda for helping me to create this blog...goshh its confusing me but sooner or later i'll get used to it.Wondering why i make a blog??hmm...maybe this holiday season make me feel free to spare my time on the net.Browsing through some of my frends blog,make me wanna share some of my thoughts on my own blog.

Another reason why i wanna blog...cause BF give me the green light..haha. Thanks to him!! Its been awhile that i have not been into the net stuff,now its making me lost. Theres a lot of things that i wanna write down here...Life been great this year...found what i really want already,its really cool huh to expect the unexpected things happen in life. After what i have gone thru in my life,it make me a stronger person today.Now im standing strong with the people i LOVE.

Well, just a simple update on my life now.

*Currently graduated from Nitec In Nursing

*Will be a Nurse In TTSH soon..lucky i manage to get it. (alhamdulilah)

*Happily Attached with Mhd.Asraf Bin Abdul Rahim.

*Happy with life now....life getting better. :)

*After so many years with long hair...i cut it off! (like what mama say..throw away the old stuff.A new year.a new look.a new LIFE.)

Thats all i guess...i will be updating again when im free..*TTYN

xoxoxo.Etri.xoxoxo